no greater shame than something i couldn’t tell my parents.
what was i thinking? it was like a scene from a movie. all signs pointed to no, stop. does this prove how little i think of myself? i can’t even sleep on this. how can i get through the long day ahead when i can’t get myself to let go of today?
never in my life have i felt so ignorant. to disregard everything i’ve been told for this one act of desperation. small moment that could’ve went so wrong. thank god i still have my life. this is how i know i’m losing it. need to breathe.